Scared of losing it

Hey 👋 I am 24 now. I been so brave and not scared of anything very long time.

I literally become homeless, jobless and hopeless but even in this time I didn't scared of losing it or being dead.

I traveled +4 countries with very low budget, staying in hostels and eating street food or cooking it, none of this time I didn't scared of my security, safety or my health.

I left my family house when I was in early 20's and never scared of anything. I knew people gonna help me.

But today everything changed. Today, I am for the first time scared of if something happens to me. Because I started love a person and I can feel who she loves me as much as like me.

Tomorrow morning I need to leave her and move on my life in Turkey and it's hurt me. I cannot sleep properly last couple days, crying and try to think another way to stay longer. Because I am scared of losing it.